This is from a few days ago.... Last Saturday, maybe.


I got to spend a few hours today at the hospital with dear friends who just had their first little girl. It was so nice to see them; working together, learning their new roles as parents. It was...so good to see their little girl. It made me cry! Not only hearing that they had the child (though that did it, too), but seeing them, seeing her. She is tiny and precious, lovely and so sweet.

I cannot wait. I fear my birth won't be as easy (read: quick) as Megan's, as that would be too much to wish for. :) And I do wish it wasn't nearly two months away, though I certainly do not want a premie. I'm just excited and anxious. I can't wait to have the baby shower this weekend, and then go shopping for the rest of the stuff we need to get. I know it's nearly impossible to be truly prepared for your first child, but I want to do what I can of course. And I like shopping.

I feel like I should be giving birth soon, but I doubt it. I do get the braxton hicks contractions, which are essentially false labor contractions. They hurt like hell, though, and I spend....about a half hour to an hour with them nearly every day. They come a little more often now, 10 mintues here, 15 minutes three hours later. Just enough to be unpredictable and make me want to just stay at home all the time. I had them on the way home from the hospital today, but luckily could pull over on a side street for awhile so as to not be a danger while driving. I've had them while at the barn, standing and chatting in the aisle. While sleeping, while cooking, while sitting at the computer.

They are...my least favorite part of pregnancy. And at the same time, I'm oddly comforted by them, as I suppose they're preparing me for birth.

Beautiful wishes for your child, my friends.